Now that you are caught up with as much as I can tell you without writing an entire novel (maybe someday). Here I am today; I am healed of lupus! Standing and believing for my marriage as God has called me to, He has already proven that He is a man who keeps His promises (Numbers 23:19)and has been blessing me in tangible and supernatural ways. I am believing, receiving, and standing!
During this time in my life I can either be discouraged, depressed, and defeated…right? Who wouldn’t and I know that many of you have or going through that even now? Trust me when I say there are days when I want to just give up, something may be said to me by my husband, I could to go these job interviews and be told the position I am very qualified for has been filled, I could need to pay my $45 cell phone bill but there is no money in my bank account, the Doctor can tell me that I need to continue taking at least several different medications even though I am healed I just can’t stop taking them because they are strong medications and my body can react negatively if I just quit…It could be months until I can come off, lupus has also left behind it's "I was here" mark inside my body and has caused kidney issues that get better one month and the next are declining again.
I still catch myself asking God why? He ever so lovingly reminds me that He has got everything under control and I just need to focus on Him.
Every time He says this to me, I am put at ease and peace overcomes me, my stress leaves because I know that he does in fact got this…has He let me down once? Absolutely not! Have I never actually been without? I do have a roof over my head, it may not be my own roof and yes, this roof belongs to my parents but it is in fact a home…with a bed! I am not skin and bones from starvation, I have access to a fridge full of food, I have clothes and shoes, I have everything I need to stay alive.
No, I did not always get to buy extras like get my nails done every 2-3 weeks, I can't dye my hair (Hi greys...be gone please), or organic/grass fed food that I used to and I do not have enough to help pitch in and pay bills at home for my parents…but I have! What am I complaining about? God reveals this to me daily.
1 Thessalonians 5:16-18 Rejoice always, pray continually, give thanks in all circumstances; for this is God’s will for you in Christ Jesus
Right now, during everything going on (and not going on) I know that my main focus should not be the problems, it should be on Jesus, it should be on growing closer to Him and having a more intimate relationship with the One who healed me. I will not let any thing distract me from that.
Psalm 112:7 “They will have no fear of bad news; their hearts are steadfast, trusting in the LORD.”
I need to focus on getting myself back on track physically, spiritually, and emotionally, sit back and watch God come through.
Today’s blog was supposed to go a totally different direction! I was going to write about something else I had already pre-written out but I’ve been praying a lot about the things that discourage me at times, praying that God will remind me when I think about them to look around and remember that I am to come through my situations, He is going to continue to heal my body, He is going to restore what was broken, I can not not to sift my focus from what He has called me to do. Then I started writing this!
Maybe this is just for me and I just needed to get this out there.
If this is for one person out there wherever you are…and God wanted to speak to you, I am ok with that.
Sisters (and brothers if you are reading as well) let’s put our struggles aside (it is hard at times, I know) but let’s leave them at the feet of Jesus, our loving Father who just wants to free us from the burdens we are facing and look forward to His blessing that He wants to give us. He needs us to fix our focus on HIM and Him alone not on what we don't have, what we are struggling with, what sicknesses you we might be fighting or the spouse who left. He will work those out for us...He wants to!
Philippians 3:13-14 “No, dear brothers and sisters, I have not achieved it, but I focus on this one thing: Forgetting the past and looking forward to what lies ahead.”
Do not let the Enemy whisper doubt, defeat, and condemnation into your ears. Trust! I know! There have been times when I am having prayer and I hear, “Give up!” “Walk away from your marriage too, he doesn’t even love you anyway”. I have had to stop in the middle of praying and cast out those thoughts, don’t be deceived! Fix your focus! Keep going!
1 Peter 5:8 “Stay alert! Watch out for your great enemy, the devil. He prowls around like a roaring lion, looking for someone to devour.”
I feel the need to open and invitation; if you need prayer, if you are too struggling in focusing on Jesus more than the problem please send me an email or comment below and my prayer team and I will left you up!
We can get through this! 🙌
Until next time, I'm praying for you and Jesus loves you!
Good Stuff:
1 John 3:1
See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him.
Zephaniah 3:17
The LORD your God is in your midst, a mighty one who will save; he will rejoice over you with gladness; he will quiet you by his love; he will exult over you with loud singing.
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